hmm...basiccally, planned to go derrick's place with all my buddies. Den around 1pm i went to my godmum place as planned. Meet up with Joshua, omg he is late once again. Sians. den had lunch and watched tv. There are some other relatives there. had lots of cookies. OMG put on weight!!! ARgh...

Went to watch <> with them at woodland. The place that im sick of. They are super bad to throw all their mandarin oranges into my bag. NVM chinese new year mah, HAPPY!!

ii dunno why i dun have the mood of celebrating chinese new year. MAny many things had happened all of a sudden. Firstly this, next that, and still got WAT...!! I really cant endure the pain liao. I not happy, but why im masking all my sadness away. everyone is encouraging me, but why am i so stubborn!!!

sometimes, i very hurt but wat i can do is not to complain. I close one eye but afterall I get the result that im afraid of getting. By acting happy, can really be happy?

This is the worst year i ever live.