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.Thursday, January 08, 2009' :)

BORING DAY

Basically i do not have much thing to blog for today. Maybe I still have not recover from that hurt. So I have no mood to actually sit in front of my desktop to update my blog. However, I really felt that Im not good enough to hold on to ur heart. Aiya, wat im thinking man! Shouldn't think so much liao. Everything's OVER! However, I just can't stop thinking of the issue! OMG ... I need HELP ! I dun want to be alone at home or elsewhere. Cuz that's will make me think of it. I need to keep myself occupied with stuff. Ya, i know im running away from the problem but what can i do. Can i just pretend everything do not happen at all??? [having headache]

I know that malay n chinese relationship will not last long. But i really juzt love him. I dun want to get anything in return. Willing to wait for him as what I've promised him before his NS. He also said that he will take that seriously and wont make me regret. NOW everything Changed.. By taking mc for his leg, he can fall in love with another gal. By right, i should have already prepared for that in NOV as I told him i got feeling that he is gonna leave me soon..he said he never think of leaving me. That's are just his words. They are all FAKE! Worked for weeks less than half a month, he fall in love with a gal. All guys' words are never true. they will tend to take back their words as they wish to.

MAybe this present is wat he thought for a long time to give it to me for my this year birthday. he had been thinking of a present to give me, but in vain. Out of this year present I will be receiving soon, this should be the one tht Im totally surprised till my tears rolled down my cheeks.

My plan for my birthday that I have planned weeks before my 18th birthday just goes down the drain. I have been thinking that last year same day, he can made me so happy and shedded my tear. This year he made me so hurt and shedded tears also. I have been trying to be a gd and understanding person to him and trusted him that he really will take the matter that I'll wait for him n he wont leave me..this turn out really hurt me deeply...Erm...Love cannot be force. Since this turn out will make him happy I will just respect him and go accordingly to him. As love is blind. HAIZ~~ doesnt look forward to my 18th birthday...[shedding my tears]

My friends all told me that shedding my tears over him doesnt worth it. What if the same situation happened on them[no offence]..do they really know what's the pain in my heart?? Yup maybe one point that they are right is that no matter how painful the pain is, he wont feel it. He wont spend time bothering over me. Most guys only know that just an apology will cover all the pain in the other person heart. That's all that they do all the time, isn't it?! One thing that I really learnt is that NeVER TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE!! that will go under my 2009 resolutions.

I lost the feeling of smiling and laughing. I dunno why. When I smile or laugh, I feel so weird. Yup that's my hobby and my style.Out of the blue, I lost so many impt thing. the last resolution will be taken out as Im no longer a happy person. I know that it is not worth it, but I just dunno why...when taking the train after work, i feel a sense of weirdness. OMG i've relied on him too much liao. I find myself so weak. After the issue, I fall so sick!!! having flu n stuff...

1hour3mins to my birthday :(

HAND IN HAND ❤

"- HER WORDS

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Singapore Poly
09 January borned
Community Service & Cultural Club
COM SERVE

Y- L0VE

I WANT THEM

< People around her >

❤ MY FAMILY
❤ Buddies

< School Stuff >

❤ CSCC

< Stars >

❤ 棒棒堂
❤ 罗志祥
❤ S.H.E
❤ Super Junior
❤ Kim Hyun Joong
❤ Big Bang
❤ Girls Generation

< Others >

❤ lollipop candy
❤ ChocolaTES
❤ SleepinG
❤ Smiling

"- grant me , pls ❤

.morE TOPS & bOTToms.
.more heels.
.See 王子.
.LolliPoP Concert in SG.
.happiness.
< .own LG touch screened phone [granted]
.buy new handbag [granted]
.go oversea with my friends
.fate.
.BE a nursary teacher :)
.graduate.
.go University maybe.

"- LET"S SHOUT

AHHH!!!

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ENTERtaINMENTS

< Dramas >

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Y 终极三国 end
Y 下一站幸福 end
Y DREAMS

< Variety >

Y 我爱黑涩棒棒堂
Y STARKING
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